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I can not be bothered to form any of this into coherent sentences.
  • Car repairs. AUGH

  • Miss him. And how he can't tell me everything because how do you tell a person everything? And I'm thinking about how it's horrible and he lives each day in some amount of pain and it makes me all ... twisty. Some feeling I want to describe by pounding the keyboard repeatedly to produce gibberish.

  • The sunset clause re: my 2^o and my feelings about effectively losing something I've worked so hard at ... and the worst part is it's one of those THINGS where NOBODY will understand

  • Schemes so grand I can't tell anyone about them but OH MAN THEY'LL BE SO EPIC

  • Planning the most expensive event of my life aside from my funeral

  • I suck at history and trying to stuff knowledge into my head directly out of a textbook doesn't go so good. This is harder than I thought it would be.

  • Let's just repeat that once more: This is harder than I thought it would be.

  • I'm avoiding everybody who reminds me of him. This includes all of my friends whose first question is "HOW'S HE DOING???" The reason I'm not answering that question on AIM? Because I don't fucking want to talk about it for the 46,239th time in the last 3 weeks. There's 21 more to go, so by my calculations, I will be asked another 971,019 times how horrible it is to have my husband gone.


  • It sucks. Stop asking.

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I struggle with that question a lot. Perhaps I am viewing this scenario as a dichotomy, but for me there is solace in the idea that I was the only one intended to understand something. Is this something that you would want anyone else to understand?

I apologize if I have somehow come off as rude, and I wish you the best. I haven't read your journal in forever, but you've always been a very strong person.

I think it's my weakness that's scaring me most.

If you've read my journal since forever, why never comment before?

I have a tendency to make people uneasy for reasons that are listed in my profile. I also compulsively create new journals and start over again.

I 'come out of the blue' once in awhile to comment on the odd entry when it somehow seems appropriate, but it's rare.

I find your profile intriguing, what with performing my own mental home-renos lately...

The most expensive event of your life aside from your funeral? This intrigues me. Do tell.

Feel like going for coffee one of these days?

*hugs* We really should catch up sometime. Heck... I'll even shoot you an email. Now that I have SOME more time perhaps we could do sushi again?

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